thirty four days to go 'til D-Day.

whenever i think of the zillion and one things that have yet to be done, i suddenly feel overwhelmed, suffocated, like the room is closing in on me (figuratively, of course, when i'm outdoors. hehe). i then wish i have eight arms. or could teleport (hehe, catchword of the barops tbs, right aaron? haha!) myself from place to place. or that i have clones (more than one, of course) so i could be in many places at once and multi-task to my heart's content.

so much for wishful thinking.

truth be told, i'm scared to death. i can only imagine what it would be like to actually have to take those dreaded exams, but i'm pretty sure that what i'm feeling now is at least an approximation of such (i am now dreading what i would actually feel like when my time comes). my friends who are set to take the exams tell me they've been having nightmares. i have, too. of course not of actually taking the exams, but they are nightmares nevertheless. that or i stay up worrying and coming up with a long "if only" list.

I had that luxury (if one would term it such, though madonna actually said in an interview that worrying is a luxury, the children in malawi [i think she said malawi] don't have that luxury) these past few months. but it's august 3 already and i've realized that i don't have that luxury anymore.

my goals for the next two months are quite simple:
1. i'm not going to take the time to stop and think because thinking leads to over-thinking, over-thinking leads to worrying, and when worrying rears its ugly head, i'm done for.
2. i'm not going to cry til the 27th of September. and as an incentive, if i actually last that long i'm treating myself to something yummy and pretty.
3. i'm not going to forget that i'm a law student in her third year, first semester of law school (supposedly the most difficult semester in a law student's life).
4. i'm not going to forget about my friends and family.
5. i'm going to sleep earlier and wake up earlier in an attempt to become more productive (if only there were 48-hour days)
6. my "babies" will always come first. when i get overwhelmed or sad or frustrated or scared, i will think of the bigger picture and that this is all for them.
7. i will keep myself happy so as to prevent myself from going crazy (hahaha).

thirty four days. a little bit more than a month. a lot can happen during and after. bring it on.

first year law student.kid at heart.idealist.optimist (except about myself).hopeless romantic.daydream believer.dreamer.klutz(hehe).


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